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It’s Not Always Easy But It Sure Feels Good

Posted on 25. Sep, 2008 by Laura-Jane - Whimfield in Life Dream, Outdoors

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Yesterday, I had reason to be in the house while Cameron was at the back of our property cutting firewood.

After a few hours I decided to head out to find him.

As I was making my way through the fields and along the paths by myself, for the first time I felt personally connected to our land.

I walked through the woods, noting changes along the way.

I felt comfortable and aware. And I realized that I’m starting to recognize bird calls and I can identify most of the trees on our property. (The plants are another story, but that’ll come eventually.)

I realized that I know where I’m going, and there’s no need to worry about getting lost.

It’s just me and the trees, and I can go wherever I please.

Over the past few days I’ve been feeling a little down; I’ve been a little worried about winter and I’ve been feeling a might overwhelmed.

But when I came upon Cameron working hard in the woods, something about watching him from afar knocked me back into good spirits. It put things into perspective. Watching him–so small in the distance–was like looking at life from another person’s point of view.

I was reminded of how, during my first university days, I never imagined in a million years that I could take forty classes and eventually graduate. It seemed too daunting–unattainable. But, lo and behold, one day I found myself having my photograph taken with diploma in hand, as I smiled in my black robe and tassel. Somehow, in small steps, I’d done it without even really realizing it.

After graduation, I remember desperately looking for a job, wondering how I would ever get hired. Then, one day, I realized that there I was, at my own desk with my very own mouse-pad and phone line.

And then yesterday, I realized that, hey, here we were! In the middle of our very own woods on a brisk, sunny day, inspecting leaf shapes and discussing tree rings.

Sometimes to appreciate where you are in life you have to take a step back and look at the big picture. You’ve got to remember where you used to be and remind yourself of where you are now.

Sometimes it just takes looking at yourself from a distance to see how far you’ve come.

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